Well, HI THERE.
Six entire months – SIX! – have passed since I’ve fired up the blog and worked up the courage to write, well, anything.
In my defense, I figured it was better to slink off into the sunset than to pump out drivel that nobody cares about. Filler content is pretty 2015, right?
It’s probably incorrect to say that I haven’t had anything to say. I just haven’t been saying it here. Trying to figure out what I want this space to be, where I want it to go, and how it can (or can’t) support my goals has been difficult, uncomfortable, and, frankly, it’s just been easier to let it languish than to try to confront and map out a path forward. Today, I’m Bobbi. has never been a truly confessional space and it’s never fit into big bright categories as far as content goes. Is it a travel blog? A lifestyle blog? A business blog? Does it have to be one? All? I’ve spent so many years helping other people think about and grow their digital worlds that I never really had anything left over to do the same for myself. That’s OK, of course, but it’s also limiting.
It can be frustrating to look at this space and think, damn, I should have done a lot more than this. (Preferably before blogging started to go down the drain due to overcommercialization in general.)
But, this isn’t a rant! I do feel as though I can’t just pop back in without a quick download of where my thoughts are with regard to this space – hint: they are scattered – but I also want to look forward and inch it closer to what I want it to be in the future.
I’ll let you know when I figure out what that is and what it looks like, but for now, I’m going to follow my first instinct which is to show up.
So here I am.
And here’s what I’ve been up to:
I know I’ve covered what a dumpster fire 2017 was here and on Instagram. (And on Twitter and Facebook and to basically anyone who has breathed the same air as me at some point in the last 6 months. Sorry!) I can’t say I’m grateful for that. I could have done without quite a few of the trials and setbacks, to be sure. But. I’m at peace with where things ended up at the end of the year and launched myself into 2018 with a single commitment to myself that is intended to encompass a slew of goals and intentions: Be totally and completely extra at every single thing you do.
Did I want to get back to my regular running routine? Yes. So I signed up for a half marathon.
Did I want to get a Beyoncé glow to my skin and lose a few pounds? Yes. So I stocked up on Fenty Beauty, started Whole 30, and started drinking a thousand* cups of water a day.
Did I want to feel more centered? Clear? YOU BETCHA. So I’ve been studying up on moon phases. Meditating. Being extremely woo.
And, guys. 2018 has had definite dumpster fire elements. I can’t lie about that. However, I feel good! I watch less news (because there are only so many objects I can throw across the room until I accidentally knock over something expensive.) I’ve lost 8+ lbs. I’ve got my glow. My mile times are dropping and while I still can’t properly meditate without slipping into thinking about what I forgot to add to my shopping list, the effort – the showing up – has been a positive force for me.
So I’m going to keep chugging along. I’m taking on a new challenge for February as far as health and happiness goes (I’ll recap that next month) and I’m looking forward to maintaining a healthy dose of slightly ridiculous self-help books and inspirational podcasts because at the very, very least they fill the space that I might have otherwise spent watching White House Press briefings and screaming into the void.
Work & Business
One of the biggest parts of letting this space quiet down that got to me was that I stopped sharing my work! I’ve always been shy about what I do and how I do it (thanks, Imposter Syndrome!) but I did at least push myself to share recent work in this space.
That mentality has to stop as I push myself to the next level and I’m glad to be making the steps to get out of that zone.
I’ve launched a few new products for clients, am in the process of designing a few more, and scariest of all, I’ve identified two big stretch projects that I’m going to go for in the next few weeks.
I’m also redesigning Ready to Blog in a way that will a) force me to share my work and b) help fellow creators kick ass in all that they do.
So what’s next? Well. In this space, This and That is coming back, for one. I need an outlet for my snark, and Ryan seems to have reached his limit of how many links and think pieces he can digest and hear my opinions on. 🙂
I’ve also got a backlog of trips that I’d love to share in addition to an ambitious photography project that I’m getting off the ground now.
I’m cautiously, optimistically back.
And I’m so excited.
Happy Wednesday, guys!
See you Friday for LINKS! LINKS! ALL THE LINKS!
[Go ahead and picture the Oprah bees gif here, that’s what I’m doing.]
[Actually, here you go.]
[Bye for real.]
* Slight exaggeration.